Prologue

What path dwells for those who choose bloodlust and nightfall against the ever lasting sunrise of the human nation ? Of course , some lonely demented Christian preacher would tell you that hell awaits those who shall not follow the path of his god . His merciful and good god , his ever-forgiving god , who burns down cities of sinners and punishes thou who shan't listen his word with eternal suffering . The god everyone asks for when in trouble . A mayor , a policeman , a federal agent all point the electric chair for such "disturbing , social outlaws " as myself . Never thinking that society managed to wreck it's own havoc around only by itself . It happens since the first primitive man for any reason grabbed a stone and bashed his neighbor's head until his skull eventually cracked and the thin line called life brutally snapped . Or , for the more precise Christian story , since Cain killed his brother Abel out of jealousy , being cursed forever by (again the good , merciful) god . To be honest , I identify myself more with the image of Cain , the murderer with a reason , although I would never kill anybody just for some pitty vengeance ( as vengeance is one of the most powerful sentiments our human kind will ever feel , and it should not be wasted on a lost cause ) . Yet , the reckless , just-to-see-how-it-is killing style of the primitive man suits me as much as a pair of pink jeans suit a die hard goth . I will let You , the reader , find out who and what I really am , but your judging of my actions will have as much effect as a blunt katana on a fully armored Tiger I . What will be done will be damn well done , and what will be written will be written in blood .
At this point , you might be wandering what kind of sick sadistic Charles Manson type of follower I am , what is wrong with me or why am I telling you all of this . To understand a human being , you must first understand their actions . I am not searching understanding in anyone , nor do I care if I will really get some . But understanding is a key part of human survival ; particularly in this writer-reader relationship , understanding plays a very important role for comprehending the nature of my future actions , for looking out of the closed box that society nails around the term of "evil" . So I am not seeking understanding for what I am , I am rather asking you not to label me with all the tired overused stickers that society brings on those of my kind , if you fully wish to comprehend anything out of what i shall do . If one shall manage to see past the unbreakable wall into the tiny snake hole that can be the only way of reaching the other side , then he can be proud of reaching the ultimate level of understanding .
So , to understand the nature of my actions , you first need to understand the meaning of "evil" . Throughout the years , society has labeled the descendants of the primitive man or Cain as evil . Or not . Evil is in fact a large term , used throughout the centuries as describing that which is opposed to good . In other words , the darkness that opposes the light , the sickness that opposes the health , or the madness that opposes the sanity . Society , in it's every form , had no problem labeling things as evil , once knowing what the good things are all about . What society failed to do , whatever , is to stop at some points and review everything it thought worth the label of good . And besides that , it failed to really check the labelers . For an epic of time , the only good accepted in the civilized world was god . The Christian Church , being the way "god would communicate with people" , though had immense powers drawn into it by the Middle Ages . So they were accepted as labelers of good . What our human kind doesn't seem to realize is that between our born instincts also is the ferocious need for power . Everyone of us has it , even though a lot deny it . Many mistake the need for power with greed , not realizing that this "greed" they talk about is one of our basic instincts . Let's just take some simple examples . As a child , who never just once felt the need of growing up for making your own decisions ? Isn't that a demonstration of a need for controlling our own life and the power which comes with it ? Moving on , once you have that power of decision as an adult , would you ever want to loose it ? To have someone else use that power for you ? And if you would ever loose it , wouldn't there be at least one thought of gaining it back ? That is what happened to the church my friends . Having this power of deciding what's good and what's wrong , they tried to destroy everything that would be a menace to this power . Examples vary , from the inquisition , to the destroying of the pagan religion considering it "satanism" , to the crusades and so on . There are many examples which resemble this situation , even though not as direct as exterminating a whole antique religion , that can be found also today . All that the reader should keep in mind is that power is a vital need for any human , although the intensity of the need varies from one man to another .
The point of what I just said was demonstrating that "good" and "evil" are relative terms , and depend strictly on those who have the power of labeling them . The biggest labeler of all time , the Bible , or any of the holy books of any other religions , succeeded on creating a background , a starting point for those who would follow at deciding what is good and wrong . It also left many open gates for those who want to shortcut their way of doing "good" as ten lousy commandments are a number way too small for a set of rules that should be applied to the game named human society ( what the hell , even the simplest boardgames have manuals of at least 2 or 3 pages ) .
Also , the promise of eternal suffering in case of disrespecting these commandments , was another background creator , as being the punishment for those who do "evil" in the idea of the labeler .
Still , I am not saying that things such as murdering without a reason or creating great suffering amongst innocent people are considered evil just because the church and the bible labeled them as that . I feel the need to remind the writer that I have nothing in common with reckless killing , nor with the first caveman criminal . Such foul acts I pity , for wasting the feeling of killing a person , again another one of the most powerful sentiments a human being could ever reach , is as stupid as wasting your money on a Madonna concert . Also , you would have to be a rare specimen of Forrest Gump not to find a serious reason for killing someone if that is what you really desire . I am asking everyone though to forget the normal labels that the church or the bible apply , as they are as accurate as Rick Allen with a sniper rifle .
So , evil occurs when a human beings' need for power outtakes his or hers capability to contain it . Also , there are no actions that can be labeled directly as "good" or "evil" . For every such action can be used on both constructive or destructive purposes , and every action does a variable amount of both good and evil . Sometimes , the good/evil done by a certain action is irrelevant , and that's why we tend to label it solely as the opposite . For example , helping a beggar , considered a good action , will encourage him to continue his actions , which in essence is evil , because he does nothing in exchange for the help he receives . Also it will encourage other people to start begging , hoping to have the same success . On the other side , not helping him will ultimately lead to his death , but will also discourage other potential beggars . Every choice that is made will cause both good and evil , as every action also has a counteraction . And also a couple of choices , be them good or evil , will produce results even after as much as many decades , sometimes proving to be have the exact different effect than what is expected .
What I wanted to say with this , concluding this tour of my sick mind , is that good and evil are relative terms , and depend solely on the one who has the power of labeling them , that there cannot be no supreme or pure "good" and "evil" in the real world , and that there cannot be good without evil and reverse . With this being said , those who comprehended this will judge me less for the appearances , and will understand a lot about the nature of my upcoming actions even from the first sight .